Yesterday lunch hour akid tak nak makan nasi, i know he's hungry but he just won't eat, setan dah naik kepala... apa lagi aku sebat dengan hanger baju... i knoe it's so sakit sampai berbilai peha akid & still dia tak nak makan..... kalau ikutkan hati... mati budak nie aku pukul... I walk away from him & buang nasi tu.... & i told him no milk for you..... i didn't give him milk till sunday morning, akid pun takut nak mintak............ i really don't know what to do

from what i did to akid, aku kena marah dengan my husband, he said i've already told you kalau nak pukul gunakan suratkhabar not benda yang keras takut putus urat budak nie..... aku just diam and play with akif. I just can't control my anger when akid did something really wrong... I guess i'm starting to follow my dad nya perangai... which i hate it so much......

Akid..... if you can understand this..... i know you don't like to kena pukul & marah , maafkan mummy.... i am trying to be a good mother and want to you to behave child...... cry cry cry.......

tadi siang aku jumpa ayu pat LRT umah dia, i want to buy obat gigi akid pat punggol plaza, terlanjur going there, i meet ayu to collect duit SKL, so she no need to come down to my house.... susahkan dia je. On the way going there, akif menangis, kuat pulak tu..... akid pulak terlompat2 macam monyet.... kalau dah budak2 tu kalau tak marah nanti dia pikir nie playground , kalau marah aku nie garang sangat semua tak boleh..... hai.... susah betul jadi mak

today takde gelanggang lagi, hafiz roi said ada 1 murid but dia sakit perut, so i said to hafiz tutup sudah gelanggang. need to do something to tw nya gelanggang.....

around 5+ i went to kg cc & TW to sign some document, then we went makan dinner burger king at Compasspoint, Akid makan fries,nugget ayam & skit cheeseburger & a lot of chocolate, member dah lapar sangat..... dia tak makan dari pagi, Akif as usual menangis jugak, bila kita letakkan dia pat stroller he want to be carry & close to you..... this 2 boys tidur at 10pm, dah penat halfday keluar.

it raining day nak go pasar mlm nak look see pon tak dapat..... besok ah kalau cuaca mengizinkan.

besok.....monday....... hai.... start all over again i'm so so penat of all this.