Dah 3rd july so sekejab half of the yeear already GONE JUST LIKE THAT. Today Akid menangis pat depan pintu gate sekolah dia, he said... i don't want sch..... hai pening aku dibuatnya..... and Akif my little manja is always crying, tak tahu apa sebab... bila dia bangun he also nak you bangun & play with him...... sampai dia mengantuk, susah betul!!! siapa tak sayang anak but i have my limit to sabar, kadang tu macam nak hempas je budak tu but aku belum gila lagi nak buat gitu.

I hope as he grow month by month he change, if not... entah lah word can't decribe how stress i am :(

7pm I suppost to go buy my lens & beli obat for myself to eat every month but tak sempat coz Akid is sleeping & Akif is awake and merengek... nak bawak dia go clinic takut abg dia bangun takde orang pat umah nanti dia takut & menangis.... so i didn't go, besok pagi lah after mandikan budak2 nie....

Akid susah betul nak makan nasi.... nak maggie,maggie & maggie.......... so aku denda dia tak kasi susu... stilll ungkal don't want to makan nasi... so i let him be lapar... suck lah kau jari sampai putus i told him..... he just sit & bling @ me then suck his finger again..... what the what lah...........

Ever since aku duk umah & jaga budak2 nie.... i don't know wether i'm happy & is this the life that i want it to be?? i guess dah terlambat nak U-turn........