Angel is my nick name, I am 33 years old married with 2 son. Born on 24 July 1976, life has been up & down for me, sooner or later, I might be bankrupt and its all thanks to my decision making on starting a food business in March 2008 just 1 month plus the business not doing well, I was force on making another decision on quitting. I've made my decision and carry on with my life.

It's been hard for me & my husband we are struggling to meet the dead end every end of the month on bills that need to settle. That time we have a maid to take care of our son when we are out to work. I found a new job in June at a legal firm for 2 month contract, suppose convert to perm after the 2 month but they say headcount freezeeee and I that time I am expecting my 2nd child, I know it's going to be hard to find a job when your are preggy... but I found another job in some employment agency they offer 6 month contract till I give birth.. ooo well I except it, It's a boring job.... frankly say but I stay on due to I'm expecting. Soon after few month working there, I've got a bad news.... due to company not doing well, they can't continue my contract and it's over for me there and I'm out of job since Oct 2008.

I've been staying at home since then... it's hard for my husband the only breadwinner... we still have a maid and this year in January 2009, My parent & younger sister come stay my place due to my dad had a misunderstanding with my sister & her husband.. well I am the older one, I simply can't say NO to them.... they are my parent!! Now my mum decided to go back to my 2nd sister house, she said she's more comfortable there.

My due date for giving birth is on 20 Feb 2009, but I guess I am in a lot of stress lately and more people in the house more thingssss to think about, I give birth at 25 plus week due to bleeding very heavy and my placenta is low. Had to go through Emergency C-Section It's a very painful experience but my baby boy is born premature but safe & healthy. We name him Mohamad Akif Angel

We sent back our maid few days I come back from the hospital and I take care everything from now on.... from bathing my 1st son & 2ns son, cleaning the house, cook.... We sent her back bcoz we need to save $500 everymonth & I still think it's a pratical thing to do due to I'm not working..... Somethime my husband, my dad & my sis help a bit in house work and take care of my 2 babyssss, they a great help!!!! I appreaciate them on helping me, even not that prefect but ok lah :)

I cry every day when I'm stress with myself & my 1st son. I cry becoz I can't play with my son due to my operation part still painful,I CAN'T carry him, I CAN'T sit on the floor & play with him. I cry becoz I am in pain most of the time, with no help from my in law & own mother....... so sad when I think about it.

My dad move out from my flat 2 weeks ago and it's all becoz I raise my voice at him but I don't mean it.... ahhhhh very childish of him... wellll let him be lah maybe he got a motive.... now left my younger sister staying with me, I hope she's happy here....

It's been 3weeks plus, I am healing fast, I guess I must be strong even it's to painfull to swollow.